I think I’m going crazy. I love someone to the point (I can’t believe I’m saying this..)I would want to spend the rest of my life with him.. Or at least spend a very long time with. He makes me feel amazing when I’m with him. I might not believe the things he says - ‘your cute’, ‘your beautiful’.. i feel like hell for putting him through that mental/emotional torture. I love him like crazy and i always miss him the second I leave his car. It’s the first time I’ve been thishappy. ya tebya leyblyu! 8.21.11 <3
i’ve always told myself i would never hurt myself no matter how horribly numb i got.. i guess i should take back what i said. over the last couple of months, I’ve cut myself a total of 5 times. I’ve always sat there and couldn’t find the balls to do it. after finding out other people do it, i don’t see the problem in it. each time I’ve done it, to escape from the numbness of the situation.
I wish people wouldn’t see the looks and just get to know me. Call me what you will but I think having good looks is a curse. All guys want to do is get me in bed and nothing else. Most of the time, I want more than that. I want someone to love me for me..for who I am and who I’m not.